LOL I have done a fair amount of fucking up in the past 10 years. Drugs included. I could quite easily go down the same path if it wasn't for the people around me that inspire me to think about what I do and how it affects others.

Your life isn't fucked now, you have gotten it back on track and that takes a shitload of strength from where you were at your lowest.

I think John would be beyond proud. *love*