Starting to foam in the heat

[lizblackdog]

I'm seriously wondering if this heat is going to kill me.

can't eat, can't stop drinking, can't think straight, am soaking myself in cold water every few hours. it feels like the only thing keeping me alive.

mum is doing well at T's, Maisie is fine in London with E. I'm wondering if some of this isn't just the collapse now that the immediate responsibilities of having to rush round coping have been lifted.

however, I've been wondering for a while if there might be something wrong. I've always kept my liquid intake on the high side, but needing 5 litres a day is a bit excessive even for me. There's also been the raging thirst if I'm separated from something to drink for more than fifteen minutes, the faintiness if I don't eat in the morning, the incredible lassitude and foggy thinking - I never do well in the heat but this last week I've felt constantly hungover and I can't spend five minutes on the couch without falling asleep. None of this is normal for me even in the heat.

sister T phoned halfway through typing this entry and nagged till I made a doctor's appointment. the annoyance of getting there on foot/bus has put me off, there's no direct bus and I'm not up to walking far in this weather. however, I still have Mum's debit card (with permission) and Mum says I can get a taxi if I like.

doctor's appt, Friday 14th, 4.20pm. mustn't forget it.

forgive me if I don't comment much today. love you all. but my head's spinning and I'm going to go lie down.

Comments

[revolution-grrl.livejournal.com]

It's interesting, I have many of the same symptoms. Waking up in the morning, after hours without drinking anything, is like having spent a week in the Sahara. I drink about 100 oz. plus of water a day, when I haven't done anything especially vigorous. I also get the crazy sugar crashes when I haven't eaten. Every medical professional I have ever told this to has told me with certainty that I am clearly diabetic, and they test me every time, and I'm not. Apparently, I'm hypoglycemic, which is just the opposite. They put me on some medication to help it, and I hated it, so I stopped, but it might help others. So it might be that you're hypoglycemic too. It's mostly just a matter of eating smaller meals more frequently, and having fructosey foods around for when you crash, etc. So if that's it, it shouldn't be a big problem. I hope it nothing more worrisome, and I'll bet it isn't. *hug*

BTW, I've loved seeing the pics of the kittens! I hadn't been keeping up with blogs whilst I was in Siberia, so I didn't even know you had kittens until I got home!

[lizblackdog.livejournal.com]

interesting. perhaps it will be that. I'd certainly rather it were something that wouldn't require me to jab myself with needles. I've done more than enough of that for one lifetime and have a strong aversion to doing it now.
(I know not all forms of diabetes require injections but it'd be a possibility if that's what it turns out to be, and that scares me)

the kittens were a surprise to me too. the arseholes who gave me Cassie didn't tell me she was pregnant (they say they didn't know, but I believe they did) and the vet who confirmed it guessed she was four to five weeks along when she turned out to be seven weeks along, so they arrived two weeks before the earliest date I was expecting them, too.

they've been brilliant, though. Cassie has handled it all like such a pro. She's so great.