aargh fuck oww. My twisted knee was nearly BETTER. I could nearly walk again. Then last night I bent over to slide Spike's cushion from his spot by the Uncomfy Chair over to be by the bed, and my knee unexpectedly made this sharp crack-pop sound.

I have a friend with a chronically bad knee and I've heard her use the phrase "my knee exploded" before. I hadn't realised how literally she meant it. EXPLOSION OF PAIN. I couldn't sleep last night despite the icepack and painkillers, there was no position I could rest it in that didn't throb with pain and I couldn't stop fretting about how the fuck I was going to walk dogs like this. Getting from the Uncomfy Chair to the bathroom or kitchen is just about possible but unprecedentedly difficult. Down the stairs didn't seem likely.

In the end I scooted downstairs on my arse with the dogs offleash and let them out to piss in the communal back garden. This is strictly not allowed in the tenancy agreement and it worries fuck out of me to resort to it, even though downstairs neighbour does it every day with his greyhound. But it was either that or have them both piss on the floor in here, what can you do? Spike didn't drink for a day and a half after he had that accident on the floor last week and I'm not risking that again.

happier news: Spike had his stitches out yesterday, barring a few inside his mouth that he'd broken. The vet put those back in with dissolving sutures so we won't need to go back. The lab results are back on his poor departed nose, and all the indications are that we got a good clear margin and Mouth Thing is no more. YAYYYY WOOO HOOO YAYY!

they also both really enjoyed the back garden. I was too paranoid to leave them out very long but they ran and bounced and were happy.

my cat boxes need emptying and my kitchen is an unholy shithole. I was looking forward to ...not doing those, but having gotten them done. Now I can't even fucking stand up without a piece of furniture to lean on and fuck fuck fuck OW. Did I say ow? OW.
aargh fuck oww. My twisted knee was nearly BETTER. I could nearly walk again. Then last night I bent over to slide Spike's cushion from his spot by the Uncomfy Chair over to be by the bed, and my knee unexpectedly made this sharp crack-pop sound.

I have a friend with a chronically bad knee and I've heard her use the phrase "my knee exploded" before. I hadn't realised how literally she meant it. EXPLOSION OF PAIN. I couldn't sleep last night despite the icepack and painkillers, there was no position I could rest it in that didn't throb with pain and I couldn't stop fretting about how the fuck I was going to walk dogs like this. Getting from the Uncomfy Chair to the bathroom or kitchen is just about possible but unprecedentedly difficult. Down the stairs didn't seem likely.

In the end I scooted downstairs on my arse with the dogs offleash and let them out to piss in the communal back garden. This is strictly not allowed in the tenancy agreement and it worries fuck out of me to resort to it, even though downstairs neighbour does it every day with his greyhound. But it was either that or have them both piss on the floor in here, what can you do? Spike didn't drink for a day and a half after he had that accident on the floor last week and I'm not risking that again.

happier news: Spike had his stitches out yesterday, barring a few inside his mouth that he'd broken. The vet put those back in with dissolving sutures so we won't need to go back. The lab results are back on his poor departed nose, and all the indications are that we got a good clear margin and Mouth Thing is no more. YAYYYY WOOO HOOO YAYY!

they also both really enjoyed the back garden. I was too paranoid to leave them out very long but they ran and bounced and were happy.

my cat boxes need emptying and my kitchen is an unholy shithole. I was looking forward to ...not doing those, but having gotten them done. Now I can't even fucking stand up without a piece of furniture to lean on and fuck fuck fuck OW. Did I say ow? OW.
I have started and deleted this entry several times, because it's uncomfortable and I feel as though I'm doing something wrong.

The lovely people on Khimeros (which you should join because they are lovely people and there are pretty shiny fake pets on it like this) set up an art auction, unasked, to help pay for Spike's surgery. So I am finally making this entry because more than one of you has asked me to, and while I don't like to ask, I am not too proud to turn down help offered.

Well, the surgery's been paid for. So it isn't urgent. It isn't one of those "help me or my dog will have to stay sick" deals. But it was a lot. The diagnostic work pre-surgery came to £1500 - that was my DWP back pay and some that my Mum kicked in. The surgery itself came to £3000. It was paid for by my mother killing off her savings and running two credit cards up to the limit and my sister putting in £500 and now Mum doesn't have an emergency fallback if anything goes wrong in her life. I'm paying her back, but even if I live on ramen noodles and Smartprice baked beans for the rest of my life I can only pay it back pretty slowly.

So since I've been asked, if you want to help, if you can spare it, here it is:








That goes to Mum's bank account, it was set up specifically to help cover the surgery. Please don't think you have to or that you're a bad friend if you don't for any reason. You've already all been awesome; like a huge tidal wave of love and supportive.

My original idea was to try and do art commissions, but I have something close to a panic attack every time I think too hard about that one. What I thought I'd do is a kind of compromise: if anyone puts in more than £7 or $10 (i.e. enough to cover postage and a bit over) I will mail you something I painted. You'll need to give me a mailing address (comments to this entry are screened) and tell me what kind of thing you want. I don't guarantee I'll be able to do exactly what you want, and may fall back on dragons or flying unicorns instead, and it may take me some time, but I promise there'll be SOMETHING.

Meanwhile, Spike is doing good. His teeth need cleaning and his lower lip is getting all dry and cracked where it used to be covered by his upper lip but isn't any more, but these are minor things. He also informed me that handfeeding is for invalids and if I hold the bowl up for him he can eat out of it fine by himself, thanks.

I've caught Mum's bronchitis and have twisted my knee (that first night when Spike puked twice? I slipped in a small pool of it, landed on my arse and apparently near-crippled myself.) so I'm feeling like shit on a stick. But that's minor too, in the larger scale of things.

Love you all.
He is coming round from the anaesthetic, and the vet says it went very well indeed. I should have him back on Monday.

I don't get to keep the teeth because the entire resected part has to go to the path lab and be treated with formalin which makes it toxic so they can't save any of it. This is so the path lab can confirm the diagnosis and double check that the margins are clear and Mouth Thing is dead for good and all. I did rather want to hang the teeth on my necklace, one each side of my tiger's eye circle, but hey, I get my dog back so I don't really care about that.

Cassie is going batshit bored without him and driving me crazy in turn, but we'll deal.

Thank you all for commenting and being all-round awesome. I've been a bit too frazzled to answer each one yet but I've read everything

I GET MY DOG BACK OMG YAY!
He is coming round from the anaesthetic, and the vet says it went very well indeed. I should have him back on Monday.

I don't get to keep the teeth because the entire resected part has to go to the path lab and be treated with formalin which makes it toxic so they can't save any of it. This is so the path lab can confirm the diagnosis and double check that the margins are clear and Mouth Thing is dead for good and all. I did rather want to hang the teeth on my necklace, one each side of my tiger's eye circle, but hey, I get my dog back so I don't really care about that.

Cassie is going batshit bored without him and driving me crazy in turn, but we'll deal.

Thank you all for commenting and being all-round awesome. I've been a bit too frazzled to answer each one yet but I've read everything

I GET MY DOG BACK OMG YAY!
Spike's in surgery now. Updates when I have them.

I asked them to keep his canine teeth for me.
Spike's in surgery now. Updates when I have them.

I asked them to keep his canine teeth for me.
Just got a call from the vet; he'd just got off the phone with the laboratory and they're saying another 48 hours before they can have our results.

So now our provisional date for the surgery is Friday. Also, I kind of want to KICK SOMEONE TO DEATH RIGHT NOW ARRRRRRGGHHHHHH ASGFGKLJKFH!!!!%XXXCZ;!

The vet did say that he feels at this stage it won't make a lot of difference if Spike damages the surface of the thing playing fetchy, so at least we all got to let off some steam. I've discovered that the best fetchy toy for Spike is the cut-off tracksuit bottom (sweatpants) leg with knots and no stuffing; that's narrow enough that he can carry it about without using the front of his mouth at all, which he's being very smart about doing.
Just got a call from the vet; he'd just got off the phone with the laboratory and they're saying another 48 hours before they can have our results.

So now our provisional date for the surgery is Friday. Also, I kind of want to KICK SOMEONE TO DEATH RIGHT NOW ARRRRRRGGHHHHHH ASGFGKLJKFH!!!!%XXXCZ;!

The vet did say that he feels at this stage it won't make a lot of difference if Spike damages the surface of the thing playing fetchy, so at least we all got to let off some steam. I've discovered that the best fetchy toy for Spike is the cut-off tracksuit bottom (sweatpants) leg with knots and no stuffing; that's narrow enough that he can carry it about without using the front of his mouth at all, which he's being very smart about doing.
stoned collie is stoned.

stitches and an attempted shot of Mouth Thing under the cut ) they've done a wedge biopsy on his lymph gland, hence the shaved neck and stitches. vet says that while the CT scans show the tumour to be bigger, it's still operable as long as the lymph gland comes back clear. obviously he can't say more without the results, but he did say he was optimistic and we are to bring him in Wednesday morning.
stoned collie is stoned
stoned collie is stoned.

stitches and an attempted shot of Mouth Thing under the cut ) they've done a wedge biopsy on his lymph gland, hence the shaved neck and stitches. vet says that while the CT scans show the tumour to be bigger, it's still operable as long as the lymph gland comes back clear. obviously he can't say more without the results, but he did say he was optimistic and we are to bring him in Wednesday morning.
stoned collie is stoned
No surgery. The damn fucking thing's grown so much this last two weeks that the vet wants to take samples from Spike's lymph glands and do some more CT scans before he'll go ahead. Which means now we'll be doing it next Wednesday. If we're lucky. If there isn't cancer in his lymph glands. If the CT scan doesn't show major changes. If if if fucking if. We've still left him there, as the scan and lymph gland needle aspiration need a general anaesthetic, but we'll be bringing him home later today nose, tumour and all.

Every time I've hoped and prayed for something specific not to happen, right back to day one when I first noticed the red mark on Spike's gumline, that's turned out to be exactly what did happen. Forgive me f-list, I don't think I have it left in me to be hopeful any more.
No surgery. The damn fucking thing's grown so much this last two weeks that the vet wants to take samples from Spike's lymph glands and do some more CT scans before he'll go ahead. Which means now we'll be doing it next Wednesday. If we're lucky. If there isn't cancer in his lymph glands. If the CT scan doesn't show major changes. If if if fucking if. We've still left him there, as the scan and lymph gland needle aspiration need a general anaesthetic, but we'll be bringing him home later today nose, tumour and all.

Every time I've hoped and prayed for something specific not to happen, right back to day one when I first noticed the red mark on Spike's gumline, that's turned out to be exactly what did happen. Forgive me f-list, I don't think I have it left in me to be hopeful any more.
Should be three Spike vids embedded under the cut, if it works )

Am waiting on a call from the vet. We should be able to make an appointment for the surgery early next week. It's conceivable that the Dogs Trust will cover it - I'm waiting on news from them too - but if not, Mum and I can cover it although it'll leave both of us uncomfortably indebted.
Should be three Spike vids embedded under the cut, if it works )

Am waiting on a call from the vet. We should be able to make an appointment for the surgery early next week. It's conceivable that the Dogs Trust will cover it - I'm waiting on news from them too - but if not, Mum and I can cover it although it'll leave both of us uncomfortably indebted.
These are the pics the vet sent me. These are both surgeries he did himself.

...How does he smell? Terrible )
These are the pics the vet sent me. These are both surgeries he did himself.

...How does he smell? Terrible )
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( Apr. 16th, 2010 04:59 pm)
so i just got a call from the vet.

the final results are in, and it's squamous cell carcinoma.

surgery is still possible, but the thing is so far up into his nasal cavity he would have to lose his nose.

vet assures me that it is possible for a dog to recover from this. he's emailing me some pictures of dogs that have had it done, which I will post when I have them. He says that one of the pictures is of a rather less extensive surgery than Spike would need, and one rather more, so that Spike's end result would fall somewhere between the two.

I don't even. His nose.
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( Apr. 16th, 2010 04:59 pm)
so i just got a call from the vet.

the final results are in, and it's squamous cell carcinoma.

surgery is still possible, but the thing is so far up into his nasal cavity he would have to lose his nose.

vet assures me that it is possible for a dog to recover from this. he's emailing me some pictures of dogs that have had it done, which I will post when I have them. He says that one of the pictures is of a rather less extensive surgery than Spike would need, and one rather more, so that Spike's end result would fall somewhere between the two.

I don't even. His nose.
* After another morning of failing to be woken up by the vet telephoning me, I telephoned them. Their head soft tissue guy was out but he called me back to tell me what they know so far.

* WE ARE STILL NONE THE FUCKING WISER. Parts of the tissue sample analysed as squamous cell carcinoma, parts of it came back benign (which the vet says would suggest an inverted papilloma) and the CT scans and x-rays don't look particularly like either. We're still waiting on some of the histopathology results (the tissue sample with the tooth in it takes longer to prepare for analysis) and that may help some; meanwhile the vet's sending all the images back to their imaging expert to look at again and see if they missed anything. He also says he's never seen anything quite like it before.

* Bloodwork and lymph gland needle aspirations show nothing to worry about.

Spike's CT scans - say hello to Mouth Thing )
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