gnarrrr!!!

...a friend of mine wrote something, not long ago, about having been accustomed to be the one with the sexual power in relationships: the one with the power to grant or deny sex, the one in control; and I felt a pang of envy then. I've never, ever felt that - my entire sexual life I've felt powerless, always the one hungry for satisfaction and raw with need, always the one doing the chasing in a permanent state of hopeful uncertainty, always pathetically grateful for any interest. The only exception was my husband, where our levels of need matched to perfection and, frankly, it's a wonder we ever made it out of bed long enough to get to the registry office. But even then, I wasn't the one with the power - power just wasn't an issue between us.

It's been my normal state for so long that I can only conclude I must like it like that. I don't think I'd know how to be any other way. I just sometimes really fucking hate it, is all.

gnarrrr!!!

...a friend of mine wrote something, not long ago, about having been accustomed to be the one with the sexual power in relationships: the one with the power to grant or deny sex, the one in control; and I felt a pang of envy then. I've never, ever felt that - my entire sexual life I've felt powerless, always the one hungry for satisfaction and raw with need, always the one doing the chasing in a permanent state of hopeful uncertainty, always pathetically grateful for any interest. The only exception was my husband, where our levels of need matched to perfection and, frankly, it's a wonder we ever made it out of bed long enough to get to the registry office. But even then, I wasn't the one with the power - power just wasn't an issue between us.

It's been my normal state for so long that I can only conclude I must like it like that. I don't think I'd know how to be any other way. I just sometimes really fucking hate it, is all.

Don't need a weather man to know which way the wind blows

Took the dogs out in the pissing rain to play ball. They feel better, but getting wet seems to have made Squish all overexcited. He's chasing his tail on the couch like an idiot, bless his heart.

The flat stinks of wet dog. Bizarrely, Squish's plastic clothesline smells of fox piss when it gets wet. With the first one I thought I must have trailed it through fresh fox piss in the grass, but I don't see that happening twice, there aren't that many incontinent foxes round here. Must be the plastic.

Have resisted making a second pot of coffee up till now, but I may be about to surrender. I usually do.

Don't need a weather man to know which way the wind blows

Took the dogs out in the pissing rain to play ball. They feel better, but getting wet seems to have made Squish all overexcited. He's chasing his tail on the couch like an idiot, bless his heart.

The flat stinks of wet dog. Bizarrely, Squish's plastic clothesline smells of fox piss when it gets wet. With the first one I thought I must have trailed it through fresh fox piss in the grass, but I don't see that happening twice, there aren't that many incontinent foxes round here. Must be the plastic.

Have resisted making a second pot of coffee up till now, but I may be about to surrender. I usually do.

I've had it with your discipline

...an honourable compromise. Made half a pot of coffee.

I've had it with your discipline

...an honourable compromise. Made half a pot of coffee.

Tra-la-la-la-la

Happy now, if somewhat wired!

Have been faffing with my layout, too, since it was high time I took advantage of my lovely happy shiny paid account birthday present - please, please look at it and give me feedback and suggestions and stuff, especially those of you who have custom layouts yourselves or know how to work them...

Oooh, and I can do tags now, too - I couldn't with the previous layout, the old system doesn't support them. That'll be a fun thing to do next time I'm in one of my obsessive moods. Heh.

Tra-la-la-la-la

Happy now, if somewhat wired!

Have been faffing with my layout, too, since it was high time I took advantage of my lovely happy shiny paid account birthday present - please, please look at it and give me feedback and suggestions and stuff, especially those of you who have custom layouts yourselves or know how to work them...

Oooh, and I can do tags now, too - I couldn't with the previous layout, the old system doesn't support them. That'll be a fun thing to do next time I'm in one of my obsessive moods. Heh.