Every time I take a break from this pad of mine

well, I was gonna stay at Grimmauld Place, but no one had told me Mum had cancelled both the broadband and the cable TV. So no Internet, and I couldn't even get Channel 5 (which was showing House and Grey's Anatomy, both of which I would have liked to see). I ended up watching fuckin' Big Brother and doing the washing-up and then came home because I was scared my brain might melt.

makes sense, because she never uses either, but still!

been to hospital, seen her. so small and frail and yellow. they're doing tests. I keep thinking of things I could and should have done before things got this bad. She's scared she has cancer; it runs in our family. The only one of Mum's family who didn't die of cancer was her youngest sister who passed out drunk and choked on her own vomit when she was my age (substance abuse runs in our family too). I don't think she does because she had a complete health check a few months back and I think they'd have found it then. I think she just pushed her liver too far. But we'll see.

my cat was all pleased to see me and spent nearly two hours sitting in my lap :)

( cat in lap! )

Every time I take a break from this pad of mine

well, I was gonna stay at Grimmauld Place, but no one had told me Mum had cancelled both the broadband and the cable TV. So no Internet, and I couldn't even get Channel 5 (which was showing House and Grey's Anatomy, both of which I would have liked to see). I ended up watching fuckin' Big Brother and doing the washing-up and then came home because I was scared my brain might melt.

makes sense, because she never uses either, but still!

been to hospital, seen her. so small and frail and yellow. they're doing tests. I keep thinking of things I could and should have done before things got this bad. She's scared she has cancer; it runs in our family. The only one of Mum's family who didn't die of cancer was her youngest sister who passed out drunk and choked on her own vomit when she was my age (substance abuse runs in our family too). I don't think she does because she had a complete health check a few months back and I think they'd have found it then. I think she just pushed her liver too far. But we'll see.

my cat was all pleased to see me and spent nearly two hours sitting in my lap :)

( cat in lap! )

Crazy - but that's how it goes

Mum's gained enough strength from the electrolyte drip to start being irritating. That has to be good news, doesn't it?

She woke me up this morning phoning from the hospital. She wanted me to spend the afternoon at Grimmauld Place waiting for the NTL people to come and take away the cable/broadband box. If I'd had a bit more than half an hour's notice (Mum was quite sure she'd told me, but she was wrong there) and if it hadn't been brutally hot* I might have agreed to do it. As it is - sod them. I already have to go shopping for her and bring her more things and feed the cat, but I can do all that this evening. I felt guilty even as I was saying it, but fuck them. They'll just have to turn up some other time.

Took the dogs for their morning walk and ran into Spike's girlfriend Ella and her mum out in their front garden. She's tried to register at LJ but hasn't yet found a username she likes that someone doesn't already have - I hope she does, it'd be way cool to have a dog person here that I see in Real Life. Her evil cat, beautiful yellow-eyed Rio, teased my dogs by popping in and out of the bushes at the side of the house**, and he and the dogs caught me at a bad moment and pulled me over... I didn't let go of the leashes (I never do) but I have a lovely bleeding scrape all down my left arm. We told dog-related injury stories and bitched about flexi-leads and yucca plants. I love Ella, she and Spike are two of a kind and I can't wait to show pictures.

( cut for family and cat rambling. )

*anyone who tells me I don't know what hot is and it's much hotter where they are will be slapped with a wet fish and possibly defriended. I'm REALLY not in the mood.


**yes, they are indoor/outdoor cats. I don't believe that necessarily makes someone a stupid pet owner, depending on the cat and where you live - and she lives at the end of a quiet cul-de-sac where the cats are on a first-name basis with all the dogs and people who live there and the only road nearby is a dead end where nothing goes faster than 5mph. Would I let my cat out if I lived there? I don't know. I do know that she generally knows where they all are. It's another argument I'm not prepared to have in my journal today, in any case.

Crazy - but that's how it goes

Mum's gained enough strength from the electrolyte drip to start being irritating. That has to be good news, doesn't it?

She woke me up this morning phoning from the hospital. She wanted me to spend the afternoon at Grimmauld Place waiting for the NTL people to come and take away the cable/broadband box. If I'd had a bit more than half an hour's notice (Mum was quite sure she'd told me, but she was wrong there) and if it hadn't been brutally hot* I might have agreed to do it. As it is - sod them. I already have to go shopping for her and bring her more things and feed the cat, but I can do all that this evening. I felt guilty even as I was saying it, but fuck them. They'll just have to turn up some other time.

Took the dogs for their morning walk and ran into Spike's girlfriend Ella and her mum out in their front garden. She's tried to register at LJ but hasn't yet found a username she likes that someone doesn't already have - I hope she does, it'd be way cool to have a dog person here that I see in Real Life. Her evil cat, beautiful yellow-eyed Rio, teased my dogs by popping in and out of the bushes at the side of the house**, and he and the dogs caught me at a bad moment and pulled me over... I didn't let go of the leashes (I never do) but I have a lovely bleeding scrape all down my left arm. We told dog-related injury stories and bitched about flexi-leads and yucca plants. I love Ella, she and Spike are two of a kind and I can't wait to show pictures.

( cut for family and cat rambling. )

*anyone who tells me I don't know what hot is and it's much hotter where they are will be slapped with a wet fish and possibly defriended. I'm REALLY not in the mood.


**yes, they are indoor/outdoor cats. I don't believe that necessarily makes someone a stupid pet owner, depending on the cat and where you live - and she lives at the end of a quiet cul-de-sac where the cats are on a first-name basis with all the dogs and people who live there and the only road nearby is a dead end where nothing goes faster than 5mph. Would I let my cat out if I lived there? I don't know. I do know that she generally knows where they all are. It's another argument I'm not prepared to have in my journal today, in any case.