I stepped out of the wilderness, all squint-eyed and confused

Lately, all my dreams have a common theme; someone holding me, loving me. The dream characters are often implied sexual partners in the dream, but these are not sex dreams, merely dreams in which there's someone in my life who holds and hugs and loves me.

I miss that. I don't, I truly don't, want to be part of a couple. I don't want to live with someone, I can't deal with the expectations and obligations that sort of relationship carries. I'd fail miserably if I tried. But the thing the dreams are telling me is that I could really do with someone to be in my corner, that way. That I want someone around that I matter to enough that they'd hug me.

I know people who are reading this care about me in varying degrees. You know it isn't the same, and in any case none of you are here. I don't know what to do about it.

Getting out more would probably be a start. *sigh*

I stepped out of the wilderness, all squint-eyed and confused

Lately, all my dreams have a common theme; someone holding me, loving me. The dream characters are often implied sexual partners in the dream, but these are not sex dreams, merely dreams in which there's someone in my life who holds and hugs and loves me.

I miss that. I don't, I truly don't, want to be part of a couple. I don't want to live with someone, I can't deal with the expectations and obligations that sort of relationship carries. I'd fail miserably if I tried. But the thing the dreams are telling me is that I could really do with someone to be in my corner, that way. That I want someone around that I matter to enough that they'd hug me.

I know people who are reading this care about me in varying degrees. You know it isn't the same, and in any case none of you are here. I don't know what to do about it.

Getting out more would probably be a start. *sigh*

When there was fuck, fuck, fuck-all else to do

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In other news, I have begun to clean the flat. Step one of solving my problem: have a home fit to invite people into. Lounge floor, dog bed, couch and surrounding area are now entirely free of dog hair, dropped bits of paper, bone chips, bits of mattress stuffing from hole in dog bed, dustbunnies, enough dog and cat hair to knit my own llama and no less than five carrier bags full of other assorted shit. Squish's bone collection has been dramatically downsized and put into the dog crate. YAYYY!

Next step: Kitchen, and do something about nasty/insufficient cushions on futon and dog couch. Possibly replace dog bed (an old mattress whose holes are now on the underside) with a second couch or something fit for humans to sit on?

When there was fuck, fuck, fuck-all else to do

( Cut for meme )

In other news, I have begun to clean the flat. Step one of solving my problem: have a home fit to invite people into. Lounge floor, dog bed, couch and surrounding area are now entirely free of dog hair, dropped bits of paper, bone chips, bits of mattress stuffing from hole in dog bed, dustbunnies, enough dog and cat hair to knit my own llama and no less than five carrier bags full of other assorted shit. Squish's bone collection has been dramatically downsized and put into the dog crate. YAYYY!

Next step: Kitchen, and do something about nasty/insufficient cushions on futon and dog couch. Possibly replace dog bed (an old mattress whose holes are now on the underside) with a second couch or something fit for humans to sit on?

Voice Post

1) What's your name?
2) How old are you?
3) Where are you from? Are you living there right now?
4) Is it cold where you are?
5) What's the time?
6) What are you wearing?
7) What was the last thing you listened to?
8) What was the last thing you ate?
9) What was the last thing you watched on tv?
10) What's your favorite tv show? Why?
11) Quick! Find a book, or something with text on it! Flip to a random page and read some of it! GO!
12) What was the last movie you saw? How was it?
13) Do YOU think you have an accent? Talk about that.

Bloody thing cut me off halfway. ARGH.

Voice Post

1) What's your name?
2) How old are you?
3) Where are you from? Are you living there right now?
4) Is it cold where you are?
5) What's the time?
6) What are you wearing?
7) What was the last thing you listened to?
8) What was the last thing you ate?
9) What was the last thing you watched on tv?
10) What's your favorite tv show? Why?
11) Quick! Find a book, or something with text on it! Flip to a random page and read some of it! GO!
12) What was the last movie you saw? How was it?
13) Do YOU think you have an accent? Talk about that.

Bloody thing cut me off halfway. ARGH.

Voice Post

Every time I try and do this meme I get cut off after like 50 seconds. SUCK.

Voice Post

Every time I try and do this meme I get cut off after like 50 seconds. SUCK.

Voice Post

THIRD ATTEMPT AT THIS STUPID MEME. ENOUGH. STOPPING NOW.

Voice Post

THIRD ATTEMPT AT THIS STUPID MEME. ENOUGH. STOPPING NOW.