When the roses fade and I'm in the shade

[lizblackdog]

My favourite seasonal flowers have arrived, all down Woodbury Avenue.



I love them for every reason you can think of. They bloom at a time of year I like, when spring is still fresh and wet and green and the year hasn't had time to get hot, stale and sticky. They're beautiful and delicate and tiny and enchanting, they have a gorgeous and controversial scent that many people hate and compare to cat's pee, and they grow in extravagant abundance on a dirt-common shrub that roots happily in walls, alleys, hedgerows, farmland and woodland. They're also edible and delicious. This year I may even get off my arse and remember to make elderflower cordial.

in other news: PMS sucks donkey balls. I could live with it quite happily if it just made me angry and cranky, but it never does. It turns me into a soggy spitball of self-pity. Do you know how hard it is to type anything that makes sense when a good half of my brain is wailing "nobody luvs me yr all meeen no one ever comments waaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!" ?

For fuck's sake. CHEER UP EMO GIRL PARTS.

Comments

[romulantbonz.livejournal.com]

He may think he knows what he wants and yet not really know.

No deceit needs to be involved. And sometimes what you want changes without you doing it on purpose.

[ulva.livejournal.com]

You definitely have a point. Thing is that there's been no reason for him before to think along those lines, simply because none of his previous relationships have been that serious and besides, he wasn't that old either. But I don't think he has been deceitful.