Every time I take a break from this pad of mine

[lizblackdog]

well, I was gonna stay at Grimmauld Place, but no one had told me Mum had cancelled both the broadband and the cable TV. So no Internet, and I couldn't even get Channel 5 (which was showing House and Grey's Anatomy, both of which I would have liked to see). I ended up watching fuckin' Big Brother and doing the washing-up and then came home because I was scared my brain might melt.

makes sense, because she never uses either, but still!

been to hospital, seen her. so small and frail and yellow. they're doing tests. I keep thinking of things I could and should have done before things got this bad. She's scared she has cancer; it runs in our family. The only one of Mum's family who didn't die of cancer was her youngest sister who passed out drunk and choked on her own vomit when she was my age (substance abuse runs in our family too). I don't think she does because she had a complete health check a few months back and I think they'd have found it then. I think she just pushed her liver too far. But we'll see.

my cat was all pleased to see me and spent nearly two hours sitting in my lap :)

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[lizblackdog.livejournal.com]

thank you :)

that's very much what my sister said. Mum is very awkward about stuff like that. I'm trying not to blame myself.

...not actually succeeding, but I'm trying.

[christinuviel.livejournal.com]

*more hugs* It's hard ... but family have this way of being extremely difficult about these things ... I know it still feels like your fault, but it isn't ...

[dalaire.livejournal.com]

^ Ditto to all of the above. My mother is impossible to get to the doctor, particularly when she complaining about issues, so I know where that's at. My thoughts are with you all.

{{{hugs}}}

Cassie's such a beauty, BTW. :^)

[lizblackdog.livejournal.com]

she is, ain't she? I love her :)

thank you!