She might think I've forgotten her; don't tell her it isn't so

[lizblackdog]

I dreamed that I found a stash tin while I was cleaning, and inside it there was a big rock of crack cocaine. Like sex dreams, drug dreams always wake you before you get to the good part, so it ended with me searching my flat for something I could improvise into a crack pipe.

I want to wash my brain.

Comments

[baranduyn.livejournal.com]

I don't really have drug and drink dreams, but I do sort of go all pointer having smelled quarry when a photo of phentermine shows up in my spam.

Sigh. The show that never ends.

[lizblackdog.livejournal.com]

yep. there are a few things that set me off that way too. It really sucks. Though not as much as my life sucked while I was actually using - so I'm grateful for small mercies.

[baranduyn.livejournal.com]

True. At least I'm not as badly off as my sister, who won't even take over the counter menstrual tablets lest it set her off.

Ah well, you live, you deal with it. I wish I hadn't completely fubar'd my body chemistry back in the day, though. But it's the price of learning.

[mandrakescreams.livejournal.com]

I feel what you are saying.
Sometimes I'll dream of cooking up and wake up with that niggly pain in my stomach.
*hugs*
B xx

[lizblackdog.livejournal.com]

Yes. I get that one as well. Crack is a little harder to deal with, because there's quite a large part of me that remembers vividly how good it was. I could turn down heroin without hesitation; flush it down the loo if I found it. Crack - all I can be sure of is that I can stop myself actively going out looking for it.

[danasaur.livejournal.com]

Drug dreams are strange...I don't really elaborate too far on certain elements of my past (there is...way more then I let on, I promise...) but I know about drug dreams. Wanting to wash one's brain sums it up well :\