Black Doggerel

Spike is doing awesome well. I had this great long mental list of Things I Was Worried he Might Not Be Able To Do After His Surgery and he has now cleared the list completely. He can eat whole raw chicken quarters, albeit more slowly than before, and he does require them to be handed to him because he has trouble picking them up without his front canines, but once I do that he's good to go. He can gnaw on recreational beef bones, though he has voluntarily ceased his annoying habit of running round the room carrying one when he's very excited or wants to piss Squish off. He can play tug, although he needs to go carefully getting his initial grip right and his back teeth are far more destructive on the tug object than his front teeth were. He can catch tennis balls in midair. He can pick up and carry a football (soccer ball to you Colonials) although it does need to be a bit flabby for him to get a grip - I doubt he could do a fully inflated one any more. He can play the I'M A BIG HARD PROTECTION DOG BITING YOU game with me and he still drops my sleeve the moment I tell him.

My heart thumps every time I look at him. You didn't die, I say to myself in wonder. I got to keep you.

I have not forgotten gratitude or the list of people I am making art for. I love all of you.

I've been having a bad brain week, or more accurately few weeks, hence the lack of updateage. I sort of wanted to write a great long post about panic attacks, drugs, fear and mental illness but ...I don't think I can get any of that out right now. It's too loud and tangled and I doubt my ability to make sense about it. It'll go away and maybe I'll try and write it then. I don't know.


meanwhile, it is my niece Maya's fourth birthday today. FOUR. Holy crap.

oh yes - you know that TV meme that's been going the rounds? I'm too weltschmerzy and low energy to do it myself but my thanks to whoever it was that recommended Fringe. TOTALLY IN LOVE. Am also, as a direct result of said meme, in love with Justified, but I remember who recommended that and she isn't on my list. ANYWAY THANK YOU.

nyecamden is awesome. Thank you. HAPPY UNBIRTHDAY TO ME XD

EEEEEEEE someone sent me a parcel. It has chocolate and coffee and a new Diana Wynne Jones book in it and I LOVE YOU. THANK YOU THANK YOU <3

There's no return address and no note and I know why, but from the postmark and handwriting I'm 99% certain of your identity. THANK YOU JAY. (UNLESS IT WAS WYCHWOOD BUT IT LOOKS LIKE JAY'S HANDWRITING TO ME XD)

ETA: Jay says I'm wrong. It doesn't matter in any case. I love you whoever you are XD

OMG OMG OMG!!!

When I got a parcel yesterday morning, I saw a bookshop rubber-stamp on it and assumed it was the book I'd ordered for my sister T for Xmas. Then I looked at it again just now and realised that 1. that wasn't the bookshop I'd ordered it from and 2. the handwriting on the address was familiar. So I opened it and OMGYAYYYY!!! That's something that has been on my wish list for something like a year, constantly being pushed back in the queue in favour of cat immunisations, new dog harnesses, groceries, cat carriers, family birthdays and so on and so forth.

the_reader, you are a marvellous, intuitive, talented and all round fantastic person. Not to mention good-looking. I love you! Thank you!!

sex and spanking and stargate and stuffed crust pizza oh my. best birthday ever!

am exhausted, and my finger joints are all swollen & painful and making typing hard. partly from dog leashes and old age and partly from digging fingernails into salty man-flesh during the more exciting parts of the afternoon.

i hurt too much to reply to everyone right now but i will do it. i love you all so much. thank you :)

topbit, the icon is specially for you *innocent face*

in other news, i have new cardboard boxes and Spike and the kittens are having a blast playing with them. surprising how small a box a border collie can fold himself into when he tries.

ooooh!!! Balloooons!!

thank you very much, grave_medicine - I keep clicking on them becauyse they're cool :-D

the_reader - that piece of random kindness arrived with positively God-like timing. I love you. You rock.